My first appointment with my new Dr. was yesterday. It's been three months since my IUI and Brad and I haven't spent much time thinking of anything. We really tried to take a break. So when I showed up to the appointment yesterday, I was surprised to find out that my "old" Dr. office didn't send over my records but then also hung up on my new Dr. office three times when they called to try and retrieve the records! CRAZY! I was just stunned at the unprofessionalism. Because of that I needed to walk step by step thru my history with my new Dr. to give her an idea of a game plan for going forward until she gets my records. I honestly forgot what that pain felt like until yesterday. I was reliving my nightmares and feeling the stress.
I spent 2 hours with mt new Dr. and she was very informative and thorough; I left knowing more about PCOS and Endometrosis. I asked the dreaded "what are my chances of having a baby with medicine" question and her answer was 20%. Twenty percent?!?! Twenty percent?!?! I had a mini melt down when I got in my car heading back to work. I couldn't shake the thought of how low that sounded and how hopeless I felt. I got home and I couldn't shake the haze. I asked Brad if we needed to have a conversation on how we were going to pay for IVF. We have had no plan in action for IVF up until this point so I felt we needed to talk about it, right then, right now! I didn't sleep much last night...
I woke up this morning and in true Kelli fashion I wanted to compare my odds with medicine with "normal" women's odds...and bam there it was, just as quick as I could type it into google..the answer. "For most couples trying to conceive, the odds that a woman will become pregnant in any particular month are about 15% to 25%". So maybe 20% isn't so bad... why do I always jump to the bad before having faith? Why do I need facts to help calm my mind?
So anyway, now that I'm on a positive slide, I am ovulating on my own (not strong but hey its there) so that's a good thing. The plan for the future is to get back on Fermara with a higher dosage to see if we can get more follicles along with metformin dieting and exercise. Wish me luck.. here we go again!
