Tuesday, July 7, I go in for an ultrasound to check how many follicles I had and how big they were. Last month I ended up with 4 follicles. As I lay there looking at the screen, I see nothing. I had one follicle measuring 21 cm. She looked at me and told me that I had now grown a resistance to clomid. I have grown resistant to letrozole and now clomid. She informed me with my endo and PCOS one follicle was not enough for her to do an IUI and we should trigger and try naturally. There is always hope but I must say this was a devastating blow. If this one follicle doesn't produce a pregnancy, I do not know what our next step is.
It's heartbreaking to know what may stop us from having a child is money. We have always said we would do whatever it took to have a baby, but when it comes right down to it, I'm not sure where that money is going to come from. Our insurance covers nothing infertility related. I'm trying to stay positive because getting down isn't going to help anything. On a side note, I posted the song " I would die for that" along with "You never now what storm God has asked a person to walk through. Kindness goes a long way for someone who on the outside seems ok, but is broken on the inside." 10 poeple liked it and 6 people commented on it, when I temporarily died my hair pink 52 people liked it and 12 people commented on it...I guess real life is too real for some people.
Leaving on a much needed vacation next Saturday!
How I understand the waiting for the reason! Sometimes I wonder if I can even grasp that reason on this side of heaven. Hang in there!
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